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The Prince of Peace

The Prince of Peace

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Soon many of us will be celebrating Christmas and the birth of Jesus.

Well, I suppose many will be celebrating Christmas, not all the birth of Jesus.

But many hundreds of years before the day that we celebrate as the birth of Jesus, the prophet Isaiah foretold of the event in Isaiah 9:6:

For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders.  And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.

Prince of Peace.

Many years before I became familiar with this passage in Isaiah, my familiarity with the Prince of Peace was from an early 1970s Leon Russell album.

I was a big Leon Russell fan back in the 70s.

Leon Russell’s song Prince of Peace was recorded on his debut solo album titled “Leon Russell” in March of 1970.

“Never treat a brother like a passing stranger

Always try to keep the love light burning.

Listen only to this song and watch their eyes

For he might be the Prince of Peace returning.”

 

The blog post “Reading Between the Grooves” describes the idea of the song: “is that you better treat an individual like you want to be treated, because that person might be “the Prince of Peace returning.”

I am sure some of you may have heard this before, the one you least expect could be an angel of the Lord or the returning Christ.  I remember some years ago walking Baltimore’s Inner Harbor and encountering a homeless person.  Kim gave him a twenty-dollar bill if I remember correctly.

Of course, me, I freaked out…”Kim why did you do that?”

And she said something like:

“Because” she said, “you never know, this could be a test, that could be Jesus.”

 

And last Christmas I wrote about a young boy who schooled his cheap grandfather in generosity and giving.

I have to admit, I quickly fell back into my comfort zone as a stinge, because thinking back now I haven’t given up too much since.

 

There is an old woman who is a regular fixture sitting outside the Herndon Post Office.

I say old, but who knows, the weathered skin, squinting eyes, missing teeth, she could still be younger than me.

Disheveled, in a knit cap, and a worn coat, sometimes asleep, but most of the time greeting you with a question:

“Sir, do you have cash today?”

 

I am at the Herndon Post Office often, sometimes twice in the same day, and my general response is “no I don’t have any cash” avoiding the question, the look, and those eyes.

Typically, it is true, I don’t carry cash, and besides, as often as I encounter her, setting that precedent could get expensive.

 

It’s been a cold December, the coldest I can remember since living in Virginia. On a recent morning it was 22 degrees, yet there she was, sitting in her folding chair next to the entrance and exit doors of the Herndon Post Office.  On this day she had a heavy coat on and hood over that knit hat, and a scarf, and she was wearing a pandemic style mask covering her mouth that she pulled away when she spoke.

 

I went around the corner to the bank, took out some cash and returned to the post office.

 

I told her that I was in and out of here all the time and she was always here.

“It’s cold,” I said, “where do you stay?”

“In the shelter on Jefferson Highway” she responded, “I used to stay at the shelter in Reston, but you can only stay there a month, though I was there a year. I had to leave.”

“Jefferson Highway is far away; how do you get here?” I asked.

“I take the bus, with money that I get here.”

 

So, I explained to her again that I don’t usually carry cash, but I went to the bank and took some out.

With that I handed her the two twenty-dollar bills, and told her, “Merry Christmas” and went on my way.

 

It was my “look at all the children living in the streets’ and “love the blind and wounded as you love yourself” moment and realizing there was a lot of wisdom in this song that was wasted on a young teenager in the 70s.

 

On September 17, 1972, Leon Russell performed at the Roosevelt Stadium located in Jersey City in the great state of New Jersey.  My only memory of that show now was that at some point in the day, I remember being pressed up against the stage security fence with a pretty good view, and of course I had fun.  I would see more shows at the Roosevelt Stadium in Jersey City over the next couple of years, as I skipped the light fandango through the rest of my teenage years.  It would be many years though, and ultimately Kim, that would bring me back to the church and the prophet Isaiah.

 

It’s true, not everyone has bought into the prophesy of Isaiah Chapter 9:6.

Not everyone believes the birth we celebrate in a few days was the Messiah.

Not everyone accepts the notion of Jesus on Earth, the second covenant, Jesus’s blood shed and body broken to save all, Jew and Gentile alike this time.

Not everyone believes Jesus will come again.

 

Nevertheless, we can at least agree that giving is a special part of this season.

Maybe setting a precedent is not such a bad thing after all.

And forgiving too I would say.

And either way I suppose there is still a good message in the song:

 

Never be impatient with the ones who love you…it might be yourself that you are burning.

Never treat a brother like a passing stranger.

Love the blind and wounded as that you would yourself;

 

Because like my wife said, you never know, it could be a test.

 

For that broken soul might just be “the Prince of Peace” returning.

 

Postscript:

 

Kim and I hope that everyone has safe and happy Christmas.

Give and forgive.

Pray for peace and understanding.

And for those who are hurting, especially during holidays.

And for a Spring that comes early.

 

Turkey Trot

Turkey Trot

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When I was in the seventh or eighth grade, I thought I was a pretty good sprinter.  I remember a track meet that was held at the Shore Regional High School, between the four  elementary schools that fed into the regional high school.  My event was the 100-yard dash (and maybe a 400 relay as well, not sure I remember).  I was in the second group of runners, sort of the “B” team who were not quite as fast as the “A” team.  I remember sitting in the bleachers waiting for my event.  The week before I had heard or read something about how sugar can give you a burst of energy, and so thinking this was a good idea, I snuck a couple of Hershey bars in the waist band of my gym shorts with the plan of ingesting them prior to my event.  This was brilliant, I thought, kind of like giving a racehorse Lasix before their big maiden debut.

The problem was that when I went to get my Hershey bars from the waist band of my gym shorts, I discovered they had melted and as a result my plan was foiled.  I had to throw my Hershey bars away.

Ah, it probably wasn’t a good plan anyway.

Though I am not 100% sure, I believe I won my heat but got smoked in the finals running against the “A” top finishers.

I came out of it with a medal anyway, and a lesson on stuffing Hershey bars in the waistband of my gym shorts in June.

In high school, I let my athletic aspirations be second to growing my hair long, listening to music, being interested in girls, and doing other things I shouldn’t have been doing.

I suppose there was a lesson in that as well.

 

Later in life, I picked up running again.

Which came in handy when I met Kim because she was a runner too.

I think our running peaked in 2014.  I would be turning 58 years old that June and had a goal of completing a half-marathon.  That Spring and Summer, we did as many ten-milers, 10 Ks, 15 Ks, and 5 Ks as we could find.   And I completed my half-marathon that April, participating in the Long Branch Half Marathon in New Jersey.

It was great, but I think the best thing to come out of that experience that year was that I finally got over my fear of writing and having someone other than me read the words I had written.  That year I wrote a weekly blog called “A Happier, Healthier Me” as part of the job I had at the time.  This led to my Musings starting in January of 2016.

I haven’t run much at all in the last ten years.  Walking, maybe, but not even walking as much of that as I should.

This week, while driving through downtown Herndon, I saw a sign for the Herndon Turkey Trot on November 22 at 4 PM.  I thought the 4 PM time was a little odd, it started to get dark around 4:30, but when I got home, I decided to look it up online, thinking it might be fun for Kim and me to do.

I learned the race was open to ages 4 and up.

The first 400 pre-registered got a long-sleeve T-shirt.

Registration cost was $40 each.

But here was the kicker…runners had to complete the course in 45 minutes or less.

I thought, well, I don’t really need another T-shirt.

And $40, $80 for the two of us is a lot of money on my current budget.

But, here was the real issue, I didn’t think I could finish the course in less than 45 minutes.

The 5 Ks Kim and I have done the past few years, we have walked.

And though I know there is all that pre-race adrenaline, with the gear on, and the number, and the pre-race stretching going on, there is also the possibility of humiliation.

But let’s face it, it’s not the tee shirt, it’s not all that camaraderie, it’s not the post-race bananas and free Gatorade…it’s the self-satisfaction you get when you just finish.

So, I thought, who needs all that?

I just needed to prove to myself I could complete a 5K in 45 minutes.

 

I heard a sermon this week with a guest speaker who was a successful businessman, and he was talking about failure and the rewards one gets from the lessons learned from failure.

He only admitted to failing twice in his lifetime, which I thought was a bit of a stretch.

But good for him.

I thought, gee, if failing was the ticket to success in this life, I should be the King of the Universe right now.

But I understood his message: don’t let failure stop you, don’t give up, keep striving, and in the end, you will be a winner.

 

So, this morning, I went up to my closet, dug out the running tights that used to make my kids cringe, put on some running layers, got my running gloves, and my hat, and like a gladiator leaving the tunnel and entering the Colosseum, I opened the garage door, and strutted out into the public.

But before all that, remembering the Hershey bars in the waistband of my gym shorts, I ate one of the Baby Ruths and the Butterfingers my son-in-law Leon had sent me packing with in a zip-lock bag the other evening.

Now, using the stopwatch feature on my smart watch, I hit start, and off I went.

Kim and I had already established a three-mile route so I knew where I needed to go.

Through the neighborhood and down to the Sugarland Trail, I thankfully only encountered one neighbor.

Crossing the creeks carefully, I plodded along, breathing heavily, one foot in front of the other.

Checking my watch, just a few times, it seemed my pace was too slow, but picking up speed seemed like a long shot.

“Who has the Lasix?” I thought as I was approaching the last creek crossing and facing the all uphill last quarter mile back to my garage door.

Taking small steps, but moving steadily, I approached my driveway.

Not to be deterred by failure this time, I thought I would just take the weekend to recoup and as the message said, try again on Monday.

When I hit the garage door, I looked at my smart watch stopwatch and the time said…

Forty-three minutes and seventeen seconds.

There was no big timer waiting for me, no cheering crowds behind the string of flags and traffic cones, nobody to take my photo crossing the finish line…

But it was all good.

Breathing heavily, my heart pounding, a little pain in my chest, through the garage door I went into the house, while I waited for the ambulance to arrive.

No, just kidding about the ambulance, I actually felt pretty good.

And proud of myself that I proved I could run the Herndon Turkey Trot in the required time, and since I didn’t need another tee shirt and I don’t want to spend the fory bucks, I no longer had the need to run the Herndon Turkey Trot 5K.

Because today, November 21st, at approximately 12 PM:

This Turkey…

Former member of the “B” team…

Not the King Of the Universe..yet

And definitely qualifying as “ages 4 and up”…

 

Trotted.

 

Happy Thanksgiving!

That’s me in 2014 with my Team Move For Hunger teamates at the Long Branch Half Marathon
Beer Shirts, Caulking Guns, Grandkids

Beer Shirts, Caulking Guns, Grandkids

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I am in Florida.

Why?

Because I can.

Kim is not with me.

Why?

Because she can’t.

This is one of the negatives of being retired.

Before your wife, I mean.

But I am learning there are some positives.

To be retired.

Not to be retired before your wife, necessarily.

Like beer shirts.

I can wear beer shirts or brewery shirts every day if I want to.

And I can wear the same pair of jeans for two, three, even four days.

If I want to.

Because I can.

I can sleep in every day.

But I don’t.

Even though I can.

Kim can’t.

So that would be selfish.

And besides.

I am busy.

Who would have thought?

Kim’s Vintage Cool Stuff is doing well.

And I have cleaned out the garage almost to the point where I can put a car in it.

Who would of thought of putting a car in a garage?

And I have organized my tools to know what I have, and I can actually find them.

Now I don’t have to go out and buy another when I already have one.

Like caulking guns.

I have four caulking guns.

And those special pipe wrenches for large sink drain nuts.

I recently had to go buy one of those because I couldn’t find the one I had.

Now I have two.

And there are many other examples.

Might save me some money.

Because that’s important.

When you are retired.

But for now, I am in Florida because I can making up some lost time with grandkids.

Because that’s important too.

Wearing my Harvest Gap Brewery shirt.

And realizing that some of things that I thought were important in the past,

Maybe they aren’t so important.

Because I can.

And because you know…

the day will come when I can’t.

 

Postscript:

Halloween in Oviedo was fun. Ethan was Toad from Super Mario Bros and Christian was a Jim Cantore like CNN Weatherman. Me? I was a Breeder’s Cup fan in a Brewery Shirt. Every day is Halloween for me, I guess.

In The Belly of a Big Fish

In The Belly of a Big Fish

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Earlier this summer, I wrote about my phobia of going to the dentist.  And in that writing, I mentioned Kim’s fear of snakes.

Despite her ophidiophobia, I was really proud of Kim one day, a few weeks back.

While sitting on the deck enjoying a glass of wine, I watched a black king snake about 15 feet away drop from a tree branch next to our deck to the top of the patio canopy, also adjacent to the deck.

I said,“Kim, look,” and pointed towards the snake, expecting the worst.

She looked.

But when she saw the snake, she didn’t freak out.

She didn’t run to the shed to get a hoe or a shovel or run upstairs to get the shotgun.

She sat calmly and observed the snake.

And for the next forty-five minutes, we watched the snake change its mind and go back up the tree branch, then up and down another branch, and eventually down to the grass and disappear.

The most important thing was, the snake remained safe.

Unlike most snakes my wife has encountered in the past.

 

Fear.

It’s about 9 am.

Normally, I would already be at work.

But not today.

Because I just retired.

And like the fear of snakes or going to the dentist,  I am experiencing fear again, this time, retirement fears.

 

I read something recently online, one of those memes that pop up on your social media:

Time is more valuable than money.

You can get more money

But,

You cannot get more time

Don’t waste your time.

I get that. I have lived through that in my past.

 

I remember the times when I went through major changes in my life: career changes, marital changes, financial mistakes, and not worrying about it.

Because I had lots of time.

Midlife, I had to start all over again, building a new career.

Midlife, I had to start all over again, building a marriage and a blended family.

But it was all good.

Because I had time.

And I could make more money. I could get a new job, I could get two jobs, or even three jobs.

I could deliver pizza.

It would all work out.

And it did.

 

But this time, I must admit, I am a bit fearful of the future.

Because this time, it is more about time.

 

I heard a good sermon recently.

It was from the first chapter in Jonah.

You may be familiar with the story of Jonah from childhood, as Jonah ends up in the belly of a big fish.

But before the big fish, Jonah had to reckon with his fear.

God asked Jonah to do something he didn’t want to do because he was afraid.

So instead of going where God wanted to send him, Jonah dipped out and took the next boat in a different direction.

As a result, God hurled a powerful wind at the ship, and the sailors were afraid and wanted to know who could have caused such a storm.

Finally, Jonah said to the sailors, “Pick me up and throw me into the sea,” he replied, “and it will become calm. I know that it is my fault that this great storm has come upon you.”

And so, they did, and the sea became calm.

Jonah knew “…throw me into the sea” meant put me into the hands of God.

And he would be safe, and the sailors would be saved.

 

God didn’t ask me to retire.

I just assume it is part of my plan.

And I am not running away from anything as a result of fear.

I guess I am more running towards something I just don’t understand yet.

But I can relate to “throw me into the sea.”

That’s kind of how I feel right now.

Throw me into the sea.

Calm my fears.

Make me safe.

Put me into the hands of God.

And not the belly of a big fish.

And it will all work out.

 

Postscript:

Kim and I spent Labor Day kayaking on the Shenandoah River, taking two vehicles and dropping our kayaks upriver.  We pretty much floated for three hours.  We didn’t have any powerful winds hurled at us, nor heavy seas, or encounter any huge fish. The photo above was at the end, where I locked up our kayaks while we went back to get my truck.  I thought the contrast of the graffiti and the boats was pretty cool.

Urban kayaks.

 

The Serpent
Curt Christiansen Has a Great But

Curt Christiansen Has a Great But

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Curt Christiansen has a great but.

Can you imagine that conversation?

“Curt, you don’t have a great but, you have a great butt.”

“Why thank you, you have a nice but too.”

“No, it’s not but, it’s butt.”

“Okay, okay, butt don’t you think I look great in my new genes?”

“Those are jeans not genes.”

“Okay don’t you think I look good in my new American Eagle jeans?”

 

Silly, right?

The world seems to be getting sillier and sillier, doesn’t it?

We have the Sydney Sweeney controversy, an ad deemed as fascist and the convoluted argument that “great jeans” really meant “great genes” and because she is an attractive white human being American Eagle had to be subliminally promoting the concept that Sydney’s genes had to be superior.

An ad for jeans featuring a pretty girl, how novel, and how sinister.

Forgot about Brooke Shields and Calvin Kleins?

And how about Marla Maples and No Excuse jeans?

And what about Beyonce’, another attractive human being, and Levis? She takes off her jeans in a laundromat recreating a Levis ad from the 1980’s featuring Nick Kamen, and revealing she is wearing what?

WHITE UNDERWEAR!

Seriously Levis, what kind of messaging is that?

 

Don’t we have better things to do and more important issues to worry about?

 

The truth is, this is all misinformation.

Because the truth is I don’t have a nice butt at all.

I don’t even have a butt.

In fact, describing my butt as a “but” with a little less “t” might be more accurate.

Yup, mine qualifies as a “but” but maybe not a full “butt.”

Butt, I do like my new American Eagle jeans, though.

And my favorite jeans of all time, those that I wore at all three of my daughters’ weddings, were American Eagle genes, I mean jeans.

And speaking of genes, I am happy with those too.  I didn’t get the nice butt genes, but nevertheless I am proud of the ones I got.

As we all should be.

Love and Devotion

Love and Devotion

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Love and Devotion

May I love you?

Your sweet lips are the sweetest of all.  I love every inch of your heart, your mind, your soul.  I love the ground you walk on, the air you breathe.

I am longing for you dear, longing to be able to whisper my true honest love into your own precious little ears.

I could tell you I love you once for every hair on your precious head, and then I would not have expressed one half the devotion I feel for you.

 

Obviously, I didn’t write that.

There aren’t any “maybe’s” in there.

The author of that piece was a young lady named Marguerite Fadeley, and it was written around 1907.

One of the cool things about buying and selling other people’s stuff is that sometimes you find a treasure buried in a box of junk.

A treasure that may not even have any monetary value to anyone, but a window to someone’s heart and soul, and therefore might even be priceless.

I wrote in my dad’s obituary, in the words of Nichole Spector, we are all stories:

“…the fact that in the end, we all become stories. Ashes to ashes and dust to dust, sure, but also: words to words.”

I don’t know much about Marguerite Fadeley.

But I am finding her words fascinating.

From what I could find:

She was born May 12, 1891.

She died at the young age of 59 on March 29, 1951.

She would have been about 16 or 17 when she wrote the words above, the first passage in her notebook dated 1907.

Apparently, she lived in Leesburg, Virginia and married William Carlton Whitmore in 1921 who was the Leesburg Virginia Postmaster.

She was survived by one son, William Carlton Jr. who also has since passed.

To the best of my knowledge this may be the first time her words have been published in any form for others to read.

 

Today is my 25th wedding anniversary.

And though I love every inch of Kim’s heart, her mind, and her soul; and I love the ground she walks on, the air she breathes, I don’t think I could have written those words to her.

Maybe.

But maybe not.

We have shared many joys, and we have faced many challenges.

Some of those challenges have been known to have destroyed many marriages.

Yet our relationship prevailed.

Got stronger even.

 

Oddly enough, finding Kim at that time in my life, I found some parallels in Marguerite’s words.

Like the first time I saw her:

Eyes have met,

Lips are not yet,

But oh, you kid,

I will get you yet

(Marguerite Fadeley)

And I did!

 

And now it is twenty-five years of marriage later.

And I am sure we will share many more joys, and face many more challenges…

but we will continue to do that together.

 

May I love you?

Thankfully, you said yes.

Happy Anniversary Kim!

 

I have shared this one before, that was us July 1, 2000
Father’s Day Weekend

Father’s Day Weekend

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The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.

2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.

3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.

4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.

 

 

It’s Father’s Day Weekend.

Last Monday I was in church.

A church I have attended off and on for the last 27 years.

The plaque on the wall outside reads “Addition 1998.”

I remember the first time I attended this church, my future father-in-law gave me a tour of the new addition he had worked so hard to make a reality.

An addition that even included an elevator, knowing his knees could only be replaced so many times.

That was July of 1998, and I had gone up to Somerset to surprise Kim and run the Daily American 10K.  At that time Donny and Savannah would spend summers on the farm and running this race was kind of a family thing.

Even that first weekend, without introduction, I was redirected from my hotel room just off the Somerset exit of the Pennsylvania Turnpike and was invited to stay at the farmhouse.  Once there I remember Kim’s mom pointing out the window and explaining the acreage, the barn, the corn,  the milking parlor, and the dairy cows.  I was way, way, out of my element (“have you got any waves here?” you know, that sort of thing).

Even further out of my element at the time, it was mandatory to attend church. This same church, a Church of the Brethren church, Geiger Church of the Brethren.  Not a washed out Methodist Church (as my father-in-law would say sometimes) a Brethren church. I think I had to borrow clothes to dress for church that morning.

Over the years I listened to many good sermons, preached by three different pastors and even one of my all-time favorites delivered by a lay speaker.  I attended the Sunday school class.  I would experience the Brethren ritual of Holy Communion and be humbled by the act of having my feet washed and kneeling to wash another brother’s feet.  I would experience my then father-in-law singing a solo to my mother-in-law in church on her birthday in what I thought was maybe the greatest act of love I could witness.

 

Then last Monday, I was there once again.

Maybe for the very last time.

Listening to the 23rd Psalm.

A Psalm that is often read at funerals.

A Psalm I heard read the last time I was here.

Now I am hearing it read again.

 

Thursday, May 29th, I got a haircut.

Getting a haircut is not something I would normally write about, but in this story, it is important.

Kim and I were planning to go see Kim’s mom that upcoming weekend, and my mother-in-law had never liked my hair long.  So, I would usually try to get a haircut before going up to visit, so I could say “mom, do you like my haircut?”

And she would say, “No, I don’t like it long, it’s not short enough!”

But as it turned out, Kim’s mom took a turn for the worse that Friday and was admitted to the hospital in Johnstown.  We decided it would be best for Kim to go up alone in case she needed to stay longer.  I had a throbbing toothache and an emergency dentist visit scheduled for Monday, and as much as I hated to go to the dentist, I didn’t want to miss that experience.

That would begin maybe the longest week that I could remember since Donny’s accident.

Monitoring my mother-in-law’s condition, my dental anxiety, communicating mostly through texts with Kim as I was once again “home alone,” since the cell service is still spotty in that part of the world, it was stressful for all.   I took the opportunity with Kim not home to further prepare for our downsizing, filling the garage and our living room with everything I could identify that needed to go to auction while I waited for the phone call that would give me the green light to move all that stuff to the sale.

Thursday morning, I got the phone call.  There was no room for our stuff in the upcoming sale and the next opportunity wouldn’t be until August at the earliest.

Though I was disappointed to say the least, with my garage and my living room unusable,  now I could just worry about Kim’s mom and Kim.

As it really should have been.

Kim, much like after Donny’s accident when she would describe being lifted by the Holy Spirit that carried her through and set the example for the rest of us, remained by her mom’s side all week as she went from hospital, back to Laurel View Village, her room and then to Hospice care.  Once again, setting the example.

Very early Friday morning, Kim’s mom Faye, went home to be with Jesus, with Kim and her sister Kathy at their mom’s bedside.

As I drove off the Pennsylvania Turnpike on my way to Geiger Church of the Brethren on Monday, past the hotel where I spent that Friday night in July of 1998, I thought about the nice welcome I received from Kim’s mom that first introduction, and how out of place I felt, though it now seemed kind of silly.

Over the years I got over that and eventually I became my mother-in-law’s favorite son-in-law, ignoring the fact that I was her only son-in-law, I wore that title well, often bragging to the other residents at Laurel View of my status.

 

Now it is the weekend, and we have had some days to move from sleeplessness and sadness to a time for decompression and the nice memories that will keep Faye always alive in our hearts.

Though it is Father’s Day weekend, I couldn’t think of a better way to spend it, writing about the mother-in-law I grew to love, and sharing time with my mother and my wife.

As I watch the gentle waves spawned by the wakes of passing boats out on the water and throw in the crab pots, I find myself thinking about cows, the milking parlor, corn knee high by the Fourth of July, and my favorite mother-in-law.

Nice memories.

I hope you are allowing for some decompression time too, honoring your fathers, and your mothers, as well.

Happy Father’s Day weekend.

Postscript:

A happy life and happy memories require many nice people to help make that happen.  I have experienced many in western Pennsylvania as I have often shared in these writings.  Thanks to Linda and John Stoner, the pastors, and all the nice people who were a part of Faye and Royal’s life in the church and the community, and in Kim’s life.  And especially for making last Monday special.

The many friendships we made with the residents and the staff at Laurel View Village, we will miss greatly.  And the great care Faye received will never be forgotten. Maybe there is another Que Classic in our future and a visit.

 

See look here, she was probably telling me to get a haircut
the farm
Donny and I and some cows

 

The 10K Tee shirt from July 11, 1998
Dentophobia

Dentophobia

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I lay there tethered to the chair by the mask pumping gas into my nose.

The bright light shining directly into my face was dimmed only by the shaded glasses meant to protect my eyes from objects unforeseen.

All the prayers I had uttered in the days and hours leading up to this moment seemed to be in vain as my heart raced and my hands gripped whatever I could grab on to.

“Jesus why have you forsaken me?” I questioned to myself, unable to speak, my mouth chocked open like the exit door I would have liked to be going through.

Why?

It’s too late, I am trapped, fight or flight is not an option for me.

Gagging and choking, I begged God for the end to come quickly.

 

 

Fear and anxiety are horrible things.

The following, according to the internet, are said to be the top 10 fears or phobias:

  • Arachnophobia: an intense fear of spiders and other arachnids
  • Ophidiophobia: an intense fear of snakes
  • Acrophobia: an intense fear of heights
  • Aerophobia: an intense fear of flying
  • Cynophobia: an intense fear of dogs
  • Astraphobia: an intense fear of thunder and lightning
  • Trypanophobia: an intense fear of injections
  • Social phobia: an intense fear of social interactions
  • Agoraphobia: an intense fear of places that are difficult to escape, sometimes involving a fear of crowded or open spaces
  • Mysophobia: an intense fear of germs, dirt, and other contaminants

I have a couple of sons-in-law who fit the bill with the spiders.

And Kim hates needles and snakes so I guess she is trypanophobic and ophidiophobic.

I suffer from a little acrophobia and agoraphobia.

But my real fear is not on the list of top ten.

My real phobia is… Dentophobia.

Fear of the dentist.

Though I have never enjoyed going to the dentist, I haven’t always had the level of fear and anxiety about going to the dentist that I have now.

It was one botched root canal and subsequent root canal to fix the botched one that put me over the edge.

Having no more patience, I went to an oral surgeon who put me to sleep and took what was left of the tooth out entirely.  Bingo,  I woke up and the problem was gone and I didn’t remember a thing.

But since then, other than cleanings, which I now hate as well, I have avoided dealing with issues with my teeth.

Until this week.

Two broken crowns I had been living with for quite a while finally had to be repaired.

So, I found a dentist that was supposed to help me with my dental anxiety.

Nitrous Oxide was the plan.

A good plan maybe?

Maybe for most.

But I learned, on the battlefield and under fire, that I must have a high tolerance to Nitrous Oxide.

Because it didn’t phase me a bit.

And for two hours I endured the equivalent of spiders, snakes, and dogs crawling all over me while I was trapped flying high in a small plane with no way out in a thunderstorm, as I laid helpless in a pool of dirt, germs, and other contaminants.

It was awful.

I couldn’t return to work.

I was too traumatized.

 

And to top it off, that night, another small ache I had been ignoring in a tooth on the other side of my mouth suddenly became a big ache.

Probably the result of constant teeth clenching I was experiencing in the weeks leading up to my appointment.

So as a result, the anxiety set in again.

Now what was I going to do?

I contemplated calling the oral surgeon again and just having it pulled because at this point I am thinking who needs teeth,  I would rather be tube fed than to have to go through what I went through with the dentist.

But then I thought it would be weird to show up for my follow up appointment to have my permanent crowns put in, and for them to find another tooth was missing out of my mouth.

“Wasn’t there a tooth there a few weeks ago?”

“A tooth?  What tooth?”

No that would be awkward.

So, I called my dentist back and explained my problem, asked for a different plan, and made an appointment.

So far however, I haven’t heard the new plan.

I may still need that oral surgeon.

In the meantime I will suffer with my anxiety.

Because according to the Cleveland Clinic, in addition to the chills, dizziness, sweating, heart palpations, nausea, shaking, and upset stomach that dentophobia can cause, some people may experience:

  • Crying when thinking about going to the dentist
  • And have insomnia before a dental appointment

So, Kim, don’t be surprised if I keep you up until my appointment on Monday.

Hand me a tissue, its going to be a long weekend.

Vee Get Too Soon Old…Undt Too Late Schmart

Vee Get Too Soon Old…Undt Too Late Schmart

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Do you Curt, take this woman to be your lawfully wedded wife, to live together in matrimony, to love her, comfort her, honor and keep her, in sickness and in health, in sorrow and in joy, to have and to hold, from this day forward, as long as you both shall live…No matter how many pieces of Pennsbury Pottery she collects?

“I do.”

And Do you Kim, take this man to be your lawfully wedded husband, to live together in matrimony, to love him, comfort him, honor and keep him, in sickness and in health, in sorrow and in joy, to have and to hold, from this day forward, as long as you both shall live…No matter how many pieces of horse racing memorabilia he collects?

“I do.”

 

And that was that.

A match made in antique, collectible Heaven.

I now pronounce you…

Overwhelmed.

 

Some years back in addition to being obsessed with each other, we learned that we both shared another obsession…old stuff and collecting old stuff.

That made birthdays and holidays easy.

We just bought each other old stuff.

And when we bought our house, we replaced the modern doors with old doors, we replaced the window shades with old shutters, we replaced the entrance hallway closet doors with the front of an old outhouse, and so on and so on.

And when tragedy struck and the “in sorrow” part was put to the test, I decided we needed something to do to distract us in our time of grieving, so I got a Dorchester County, Maryland business license and rented a corner of antique store in Cambridge, Maryland and Christiansen’s Antiques and Collectibles was born.

Soon we expanded to a second location in Sterling, Virginia and then a third in Lucketts, Virginia.

Then one day while buying inventory at Quinn’s Auction House in Falls Church Virginia the auctioneer held up a box that contained two pottery mugs, one with an Amish woman and one with an Amish man.

“Look at those,” I thought, “Amish people…Kim might like that.”

So, I bought them and brought them home.

Then shortly after that, at Tillet’s Auction in Ashburn, Virginia, the auctioneer held up a pottery bread plate, that read “our daily bread” and looked very similar to those Amish mugs.

“Gee,” I thought again, “Kim might like that.”

So, I bought it and brought it home.

And thus, the first three pieces of Pennsbury Pottery found someone to have and to hold them, from that day forward.

And they were fruitful, propagating until there were many more to love.

MANY, MANY more.

 

To be fair however, I had my sickness too, and in my sorrow and in my joy, my office became the racing memorabilia mecca of the east coast.  Derby glasses, Haskell hats, Triple Crown, Breeder’s Cup, Preakness this and that, Monmouth Park everything, and walls loaded with photos of those moments in horse racing history that gave me…

Goosebumps.

 

But now, with my 69th birthday looming in the not-too-distant future and imagining God whispering in the back of my head “Hey buddy, you’re getting old you know, what do you think you are going to do with all of that STUFF.  You know you can’t take it with you…we got rules up here. We got an HOA, you know what that stands for don’t you?”

I know I know, but it’s so hard, it took me so long to accumulate all this STUFF, and who is going to promise to have and to hold and to love and to comfort all of them like I did?

 

Why is it nobody prepares you for what it is going to be like to grow old and retire.

Growing up in New Jersey my vision of retirement was white loafers, white belts, driver’s hats, cigars, golf clubs, and Bocce ball.

And maybe a gold chain.

Relaxation, on a pension.

 

Now it’s fifty or sixty years later and I am starting to panic.

I don’t have any white loafers.

And before I can move into my one story small house without the stairs that I can fall down, and in a warmer climate with no snow or ice that I can fall down on, I have to get rid of some of this STUFF.

 

But it’s hard.

And it’s depressing.

Kim and I spent a long time and had a lot of fun accumulating all this STUFF.

 

And we decorated our house the way we wanted it to look.

But what now?

Who is going to buy a house with the front of an outhouse greeting them inside the front door?

 

And what do we do with all the  STUFF we collected?

 

Last weekend we began the process in earnest of preparing to downsize.

Preparing to say goodbye to many of those things that brought us so much joy over the years.

Some we will sell ourselves, most will go to auction.

I am having a hard time with it.

I am having a hard time realizing that getting old and preparing for retirement isn’t all white loafers and Bocce ball.

So if you are young and reading this, let me give you some advice.

Be careful what you accumulate.

It can be overwhelming.

And remember what God said:

 

You can’t take it with you, and…

they have rules up there you know.

 

 

 

Postscript:

Though we no longer sell antiques at any rented locations, we do continue to operate our business on a smaller scale online.  We now call it Kim’s Vintage Cool Stuff.  Most everything we buy now is intended to be sold with an occasional item getting squirreled away when I am not looking.

Pennsbury Pottery by the way is no longer in existence and was established in Morrisville Pennsylvania around 1950.  The items are very unique and the company often made commemorative items for companies as well as dinnerware.  The most valuable piece of Pennsbury Pottery is said to be the lost piece made for Walt Disney.  If anybody wants some I know where you can find a few.

 

Some of Kim’s Pennsbury Pottery
Some of my glasses
Some more of Kim’s Pennsbury Pottery
Some of my hats, mostly Haskell
Just a couple of many Goosebump moments, and more hats
Ain’t No Grave Gonna Hold My Body Down

Ain’t No Grave Gonna Hold My Body Down

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“Oh, there was a battle, a war between death and life
And there on a tree, the lamb of God was crucified
And he went on down to hell, he took back every key
And he rose up as a lion and he set all captives free” (from Ain’t No Grave)

 

Young Claude Ely was twelve years old in 1934.  Despite his young age Claude, sick with tuberculosis,  was dying. He claims to have spontaneously been inspired to perform and ultimately write the song “Ain’t No Grave” while his family was praying over him.

Now that is some inspiration.

Maybe I should get my family to pray over me.

It’s Easter.

I was listening to some music on YouTube this week, music videos created by the folks at Christ Church in Easton, Maryland, including one of “Ain’t No Grave”, and had a flashback to Easter of 2020.  Deep in the woes of the pandemic, on that Easter Sunday, Kim and I had a sunrise service by ourselves with coffee and the internet on the patio, under the canopy with the fire pit. That morning Kim shared a music video with me that someone had shared with her.

It was awesome.

That was the beginning of an online relationship with Christ Church’s music videos, which were and remain extremely well done, as well as the sermons of Father Bill Ortt.

My friend Frank, who, about a month after that Easter Sunday in 2020 would pass away from complications of the Covid virus, was always encouraging and once told me to keep writing and that I could weave a good story.

I don’t know how true that is anymore, but I felt the same about Bill Ortt’s sermons.  He could weave a story into a sermon better than anyone I had ever heard before or since.

Kim and I were fortunate to have attended a couple of services live at Christ Church in Easton and met briefly many of those we had come to be familiar with in the videos.

Unfortunately for us, but good for him, Bill Ortt has since retired, but I still go back and listen to his sermons and his stories from time to time.

 

Young Claude Ely eventually recovered from his illness and became a songwriter and preacher.

I suppose one could argue that we have never fully recovered from ours.  We lost friends, learning time, worship opportunities, job routines; many suffer long term post covid or post vaccine health issues.  We lost time with family, time that with some family will never be able to be made up.

Now it’s five years later, and whatever change we experienced is now baked into our routines, and except for the occasional reminder, it seems like ages ago.

And unlike that Easter Sunday in April of 2020, we are able to worship together again.  My mother, Kim, and I attended the Easter service at the Milton Methodist Church in Woolford along with 78  members of our Woolford church family.

 

It’s Easter.

And if you believe like I believe, you know there ain’t no grave that can hold us.

And today we celebrate that.

And so, we have hope.

Because we received Grace.

 

Happy Easter.

Jesus said unto her, “I am the resurrection and the Life. He that believeth in Me, though he were dead, yet shall he live

 

 

Postscript:

That first video Kim shared on Easter morning from Christ Church was one featuring James Coleman titled “Jesus I Believe.”

The photo above was taken this morning at church.  The lily “tree” behind us was built by my father, originally for poinsettias at Christmas, but they leave it up year round now.